[DJ Full]

I realized that my thoughts and feelings are absolutely meaningless.

Because you must turn them into something - this is how meaning is born and transferred. And I have seen some of your thoughts turned into something what meant a lot. Maybe not for the planet, maybe just for me, but I'm getting more and more convinced it's all a matter of scaling and you can set the goal to any scale you want. In any of these scales, it's processing the thought what matters, not the thought itself. It's all fine, this is how it is supposed to work.

there were some suspicious cars in our village, which I pointed out, but I was brushed off as paranoid. And later there was an attempted burglary.

R.I.P. the stolen goodies, let's pity the people who didn't believe you and hope they have realized their mistake, hehe

once you are adapted to seeing hidden patterns and accepting unlikely possibilites as an explanation, you see them EVERYWHERE. There is a very fine line between this kind of open-minded/intuitive reasoning and paranoia/delusions.

I've been there. I think the problem is not opening mind to unlikely possibilities but closing it to likely ones.

I'm trying to go back to a normal life. It never REALLY happened anyway.

Is it supposed to? I have never seen a normal life. I don't think you need one, I think you need some peace and that's it.

It was stupid to adjust my real life choices around things that only happened on the internet and/or in my head.

Just a reminder: internet and head are parts of real life. Truth and delusion exists in them like everywhere. Don't blame yourself for basing your choice on them, of course as long as that choice was correct. Otherwise take a lesson.