[Codo]

If that's true, I have a serious problem. My judgment has become so flawed that I don't trust myself anylonger.
I convinced myself to believe things that I was absolutely certain about it. In hindsight I don't even understand why I was so sure about my conclusions.
I really believed (among many other things) that cars were strategically parked in my street or in front of the lab window to observe me, and coded messages were left for me on the blackboard in the public lobby.
Help, what have I become? I used to have a good bullshit radar, and now I'm bullshitting myself into believing things.

It's a horrible feeling when you know you can't trust yourself. I'm an overthinker and worrier by default, but now that I'm so painfully aware of my flawed brain, I fell into overthinking and anxiety limbo.
But what can I do about it? I only have this one brain. I have no other choice but trust my flawed "intuition", and live with the mistakes that I make.
I guess I have to be practical about it, especially with the stalking. Since I don't have any evidence, there's nothing I could do about it anyway. And if it doesn't affect my real life, it should also not affect my thoughts, feelings and actions.